Ok I feel weird with like all these plus size curvy etc blogs that are following me, cause I get a lot of asks that are like “where do you buy your plus size clothes” ….but I literally don’t own any plus size clothing, because it doesn’t fit. It’s too big. But then general “s/m/l” stuff can be too tight and uncomfortable. My butt, thighs and arms are big, but my boobs are REALLY small and my midsection is somewhere in between extremes. My size would be somewhere in the middle and I wish I knew where to find that myself! If I get a dress at some regular ass store, I’ll get like a medium or large and it’s good except my fat arms get suffocated by the arm holes and I’m like losing circulation. I don’t even bother with pants it’s a nightmare. And shopping vintage is hit or miss. Is anyone a similar body type? If so where do you shop and what’s comfortable?
I miss sleeping with my butt out
I think a lot of people are beautiful or handsome or cute or whatever. but do you realize how rare it is for me to be actually really truly attracted to another human it’s like a maybe 4 time thing in my life this is limited edition custom shit we’re talking
I want to drive away at midnight with the windows down.
I want to explore places I haven’t been around the city.
I want to hear songs I’ve never heard & taste things I’ve never tasted.
I want to sleep in until glowy light wakes me up.
I want to feel strange and a little uncomfortable.
If I had a chance, I’d do all the things I took for granted before, just one more time.
I have this reoccurring dream, I am kissing a man with a blurry face and he can’t walk, he can only hover next to me like a ghost. I can’t see him clearly at all but I can hear he has a nice laugh. When I touch him, his skin glows like a computer screen. Then I can hear static instead of a laugh and it gets louder until I open my eyes.
So I wake up and I never know what day it is. My life is like one long day with no way to distinguish time…I just don’t want to lose the spark of magic I have left in my brain. I don’t want to lose my sappy little heart. It’s constantly dripping with passion. I’m surprised I still feel that after everything I’ve gone through.
Life is so terrible and beautiful. and too short to not say how you feel and do what makes you feel alive. I know too well that reality hits, and you do what you have to to survive and get by. Which is always how I end up living. But this is just a reminder to myself to feed my soul too. To not forget that I’m actually awake.